I so badly want to be able to do it. To not be angry.
Do not maintain anger or hatred. As soon as anger and hatred arise, practice the meditation on compassion in order to deeply understand the persons who have caused anger and hatred. Learn to look at other beings with the eyes of compassion.
Thich Nhat Hahn
But then comes a day like yesterday (which is continuing this morning) and crap, anger seems too mild to describe how I’m feeling.
And no, this is nothing in the online world, this is in the real world, where my child has done something incredibly stupid but also scary and we are now back in the mode of reacting and doubting our parenting. I’ll know more today about the whole Permanent Record part, but for now I’m just so mad I can’t see straight.
(my apologies to anyone coming by today and hoping for a joke or a comic or whatever. Maybe later)
Oh, yeah, and according to this prophetic blog, today does indeed suck.
Tags: anger-management, crap, parenting
4 comments
March 22, 2007 at 7:53 am
Katie
Ack! I’m so sorry. You are good parents and you’ll make it through this. It could be worse, he could have killed someone. Doh, that’s probably not very helpful, huh? Big HUGS to you and I’ll sneak you a small tub of Ben and Jerry’s.
March 22, 2007 at 9:43 am
Kirsi
I’m so sorry.
*HUGS*
March 22, 2007 at 10:00 am
Randi
What you didn’t see on the rest of the quote:
“You must also learn to carry a big stick and know when to use it.”
You’ll get through this, and you’re definitely good parents. How many people are willing to adopt a child…especially one through foster care! I’m curious as hell now as to what happened, even though it’s none of my business LOL…but whatever it was, I’m glad whomever did it is okay.
March 23, 2007 at 10:51 pm
Kym
Do you run with an Ipod? I love listening to the Art of Happiness by the Dalai Lama. Speaks a lot about compassion, grief, self reliance, etc. You might likey