To put it mildly, it has been a rough afternoon.
I don’t want to rehash things. In fact, I wish I could forget some of what was said. It has left me feeling horribly pessimistic, just this side of despair. I hoped, thought, wished, (insert optimistic-sounding word here) that things were getting better, that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. I had hope.
Not feeling it at the moment.
Words from the Dalai Lama:
As long as we live in this world we are bound to encounter problems. If, at such times, we lose hope and become discouraged, we diminish our ability to face difficulties. If, on the other hand, we remember that it is not just ourselves but every one who has to undergo suffering, this more realistic perspective will increase our determination and capacity to overcome troubles. Indeed, with this attitude, each new obstacle can be seen as yet another valuable opportunity to improve our mind!
I’m sure he understands this better than I. He likewise has much to teach about anger, attachment, compassion, forgiveness. I’m not going to copy and paste more tonight. I’m going to go and reflect on some his teachings, and have a big-ass glass of wine, and go to bed early.
Tomorrow is another opportunity to do better.