This is one of those nights where I wish I could somehow share more about what was going on without violating anyone’s privacy.
My son and I had a huge argument tonight, because he made a mistake, and because I feel like he will keep making the same mistake again and again. I want to believe him when he says “I won’t do it again,” but history has shown this isn’t the case. History has shown he will say whatever he feels he must in order to get what he wants.
So now I’m at the point of: Do I believe the words, or do I go by what I have seen in the past?
There is no right answer. I fucking HATE being lied to. And I feel like he will say anything to avoid responsibility, to avoid a consequence. I hate resorting to punitive measures, but he simply is not responding to anything else. Am I making a bad situation worse? Am I just coping? Am I taking my own frustrations out on my kid?
God damn I wish I had the answer to these, and other, questions.