If it seems like more than one person posts here, it’s because I’m torn up.

On the one hand I look on the net for witty fun things to post about. Like a giant penis preserved in a jar, or flash games, or whatever. These things cheer me up and bring a smile so I put them here. If anyone else likes them it’s a huge bonus, and another reason to smile.

On the other hand I’m dealing with lots of fun shit in life right now. Like going to pack up my father in law’s house. It’s full of memories, but not the man himself – he is in such pain right now that he can’t drive from where he is staying to his house. Maybe the right combination of medicine will let him make another “visit” to his home. That just sucks. The babies that learned to walk there are in high school now; the boat we used to sail is on the dock and siblings are discussing who should try and restore it. Who gets this picture, who gets that table, which kid gets which plant. And the whole time we’re going “We’re just getting ready, he’s not dead, he might beat the cancer yet” out loud but in our minds going “How much longer do we get? Weeks, or months?” Nobody dares think he’ll make it another year, to another summer.

Regardless, the holidays at the lake house are over. The realtor will start showing it as soon as the painter is done with his work. My kids will never go sailing with their grandfather. Pretty soon all we’ll have left is the pictures, and some memories.

So I’m sorry if I don’t post more.