It’s no secret that depression is harsh, that it lies and can crush the soul. It likes to sneak up behind a person and smash them with a hammer when they least expect it, or hide under the bed and wait until after what you thought was a good day ago it can suck the life force from you all night, leaving just the tiniest amount of energy to allow climbing out of bed to face the world. Again.

(Oh, gee, he seems so chipper today!)

I’m not going to whine about my life, woe is me, blah blah barf. You can get that anywhere. I do want to marvel at just how resilient the brain can be, and how daring to trust my emotions is pretty foolish.

As a total aside, if you enjoy police drama and have not watched Luther i urge you to fix that right away; season one is six one-hour episodes that carry the story while he solves crimes. it is intense, engaging, well-written, and OMG I’m falling for Idris Elba. Holy shitsnacks i love this show.

By the way i taught my phone to say shitsnacks. And they say I’m too old to learn new tech.