* you’ve got to run like hell.

Okay, warning: more navel gazing, (not naval gazing) ahead.

Ahem.

This is too long, so here’s a more button (that’s a more, eh?)

Things that overwhelm me right now:

My son and school / homework. He’s super smart (I know all parents say this, but hey, he is). But he gets frustrated, and when he gets frustrated he just totally shuts down. At least at night, when we are doing homework. Is it good for a fourth grader to have two or three hours of homework at night? Well, it probably doesn’t take all fourth graders this long. He wants to instantly know the answer, not go through the steps. He doesn’t know his times tables very well. He gets tired after a long day (don’t we all).

I can’t help him enough, I don’t know how. I sat next to him last night, just about pleading for him to start the next problem, as he sat there with tears in his eyes, saying “Is it 12?” “is WHAT 12? you’re dividing 8 into 53.” I could see clearly a possible future – ‘school sucks, this is too hard, wait a minute, you mean I can drop out? I bet I can make good money tending bar!’

Hey, if he isn’t old enough to tend bar, he can just deal drugs. All the kids are doing it nowadays.

Other things:
Work. Work is just wearing me out, there is nothing wrong with it, it just seems to be zapping my little brain. I’ve posted a lot of music lyrics and stuff, partly because it’s quick and easy, and partly because I wear headphones at my desk to tune out the office buzz. It may make me more productive (not sure), and it’s great to get in touch with the true classics of music that I fell in love with thirty years ago. You can see what’s playing through the headphones down on the sidebar (at least, until I break it again). Makes me laugh to hear the local Van Halen / Boston / Lynyrd Skynyrd station to call itself “classic rock” after a day of listening to the Dead, the Doors, Eric Clapton, Big Brother and the Holding Co, Pink Floyd, Queen, Bowie, the Stones, Mott the Hoople, etc. (all w/o commercials, ‘natch)

She deserves her own post and will get one, but our baby sitter of almost a decade (and about ten kids, counting foster kids), decided to take a Real Job in the Real World. We are nothing but excited for her, but miss her terribly, and the Baby isn’t handling the adjustment very well.

The world continues to burn our natural resources with no real plan to help humans survive the next 100 years, but that would be another post. 8)

Things that piss me off:
Bad drivers.
politicians
my feet (having shoe issues w/ running)

Sorry to be such a downer, y’all. I thought if I wrote some of this shit down, perhaps I could let it go and get some perspective.