No title, just rambling tonight. I’m feeling low, lonely, scared. Fucking scared. Staring into the abyss. I really need someone to talk to. I’m going to have a glass of wine and go to bed. Gotta work tomorrow. Maybe sleeping will help.

minding my own business

I’m at work, doing my usual checking of x’s and o’s. Thinking that I need to re-adjust my way of dealing with stress and uncertainty, which currently is: Eat. Yes, I eat when I’m stressed. I admit it. This is why I was nearly 300 pounds in the middle of 2010. This is why I […]

Sooner or later, you gotta face your fears

It is difficult for me to walk into a situation and not have a good idea of what may happen. It’s a very deep seated need of mine to be able to manage my feelings, and to do that I try (usually unconsciously) to manage other things around me, so as to reach an acceptable […]