“Did you sleep well?”
“No, I made a few mistakes.”
~Steven Wright
I couldn’t sleep last night, or not very well, drifting in and out of some strange dreams but mostly fretting over bullshit I don’t need to worry about.
I need to backtrack again, regroup, refocus, find some peace for myself.
I love this. I think I’ll read it a few more times over the next couple of days and see where it leads me.
I get too caught up in what cannot be changed, in what other people think or feel, about situations beyond my control. I need to remember that I am but one person, I am only responsible for my feeble brain, and that energy spent spinning my wheels is just that – spent. On something pointless. I sometimes get so wrapped up that I forget why I’m here, why I do the things I do; I lose myself in a crappy train of thought.
Here’s an excerpt from the link (warning: hippie nonsense)
This is the Intentional Life.
I practice it in bits and pieces — not all the time, but increasingly. When I do it, my life is different. More purposeful, more consciously lived, more content with any action.
A simple practice of intentionality: before you do the next action online or at work, pause a moment, close your eyes, and mentally say your intention. Why are you doing this? Is it out of compassion for others, or yourself? Is it to make someone happier? To improve the world? Out of gratitude for the work and kindness of others?
And then, as you do the action, be mindful of your intention.
This is a small step, but in those few moments, you will be living an Intentional Life.
Don’t worry, this phase is only temporary, I’ll find a music video or cartoon or some other nonsense and return this place to abnormal as soon as possible.