Lately I’ve been wondering a lot about why, exactly, it is so hard for me to just say what I want.

I guess there are multiple answers: Sometimes I’m not certain what I want. Sometimes I guess I’m embarrassed by my own desires. Most of the time, though, I think I’m just afraid.  I’m afraid that saying what I want will upset somebody else.  Maybe scare them, or piss them off, or make them want to distance themselves from me.

I’m not afraid of upsetting inanimate objects, so it has to be people.

One of my goals now:  Speak up, be myself.  Stop getting lost in trying to please everyone else, cuz that ain’t gonna happen, anyway.