I was trading emails with a good friend the other day and wrote this, and then went back to it because it sorta clicked and wasn’t a dirty joke or cat picture.
I don’t know what it means, but the past few weeks I have been feeling better. Lighter. Like I could let go of several of the dark shadows that are usually on my mind. It made me want to do things, to create – take photos, write, go for a walk with the dog, work on the house.
Why did this happen, and why now? Dunno. It was nice, like relaxing on a warm day.
Then like the clouds rolled in again. You could almost hear it, like a door closing. And I’m small again and looking for a light.
What the hell?
So reading this made me look up this quote:
“better to light a single candle than to curse the darkness”
which according to the internet might have been a chinese proverb or an early Hallmark advertising strategy. I’m making this up as I go.
This led me to:
Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
which of course is part of a Dylan Thomas poem but is used in other places such as when it was quoted by Michael Caine in Interstellar, a movie I liked but a lot of other people thought was shit.
And hell, as long as we are talking about famous quotes mixed with movies, how about this teaser (from 3 years ago! Dafuq?) for Godzilla with a guy reading Oppenheimer over it. Again, I loved the movie but others feel that after this trailer it went downhill fast.
What’s my point? There’s no fucking point. You can’t put a point on rambling like this. I’m keeping the dogs at bay, for now, for today, or for this morning. I never know what will happen next. Looking for patterns is like going down a rabbit hole, so I actually think I am happier when I just don’t fucking care, when I don’t think too much. When I get busy with something. This morning I got busy writing this, so that has to be good enough. For now.
