just an update

Not to let this get lost in the shuffle, I’m still doing my “get all healthy and shit” initiative.

As of now I’ve lost over 60 pounds. I don’t have a tape measure to check my measurements, but I’ve lost a bunch. I bought a pair of shorts a couple weeks ago with a 40″ waist, for example. Last winter I was wearing 44″ jeans. The shorts are now a little loose so I need to wear a belt with them, and when I shopped for a belt found that a 38 inch belt fit (not a lot of room to spare, on the second hole). So that’s going pretty good.

I’m running regularly but not yet daily. Some weeks I go four times, occasionally five, sometimes only three. My usual run is 2.5 miles. Not too shabby.

Today, I have had only one cup of coffee (and I’m writing this at 7 PM). That is partly because the kids and I have been doing things all day and I didn’t have the usual downtime to hang out and sip coffee; but I could have easily brewed a pot and had more than a single cup.

So there; a post where I barely mention kids nor whine about daily life. I feel good, I really do, a few people are noticing that I have lost weight which is a great bonus and reinforcer for the work I’ve done. As far as goals, ultimately I want to lose about 30 more pounds and get to an even 200. Don’t worry, I’ll say something if I get there 😛

a good night

It’s Friday, and the kids came over tonight.

All of them.

We went swimming for a while, we played video games, they ate just about everything that I had in the fridge. No drama, no trauma, just kids being kids. Around 10 my oldest said he wanted to call Mom and make sure she was OK. I told him I’m sure she’s fine. Probably enjoying the quiet.

They eventually curled up in various places and went to sleep. Leaving me to sit here and ponder life as I know it. Think about the choices I have made.

I want to think this is going to work. That we can all be happy.

I want to believe.

I want to believe

Found this today. I know, in my heart, that it is true.

You have to get hurt. That’s how you learn. The strongest people out there, the ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile; those are the people who have fought the toughest battles because they’ve decided that they’re not going to let anything hold them down. They’re moving on.

Learning sucks sometimes.