middle of the week

I don’t know why, but I’ve been feeling compelled to write more here. I don’t want to over-think it, it isn’t any great calling or anything like that. I just feel like sharing. And then I click on “add new post” and stare at the blank screen and totally forget whatever it was I came to write in the first place. Aren’t I great?

Here’s what I’m thinking about at the moment: Positive and negative energy. Some things fill me with positive energy, others seem very negative, sapping me of my energy and willpower. Of course some things are “good for you” and you would think they would give energy – getting a good night’s sleep, for example, eating right, exercising. And they do work. But what about the negative?

It is amazing, now that I’m paying attention, how much online drama just saps my energy. It isn’t even anything important! (Usually). Just reading something can make me laugh or set my blood boiling or somewhere in between.

Here’s an example: There is a local forum here that talks about, strangely enough, local things. The weather, schools, traffic, places to shop. On purpose I have never created an account on this forum, because I know it would become a huge time and energy suck for me to engage here, because (surprise) most of the time I think the people posting are wrong. Heh.

Some days it is really tempting. Right now there is an ongoing argument about whether a new restaurant charges too much. I told you this stuff isn’t important. One person after another has supported their position, giving examples. I sometimes picture the Peanuts characters waving their arms around, their mouths wide while shouting “BUT I LIKE THIS ONE BETTER, HERE IS A SCREEN SHOT OF THEIR MENU” or something. “For that price, I’ll just go eat at XX.” “But the quality…” etc.

Ha. Greater minds than mine have pointed out – investing energy in this type of exchange means there is less energy for other things. Getting worked up about bullshit will not benefit me in the slightest. And even if I could post the most absolutely convincing bit of information supporting my point of view, someone would still regard it as “wrong” (the same way I regard them as wrong) and they would post a rebuttal and it would just continue the cycle.

As the Dalai Lama says (I had to work him in here somehow, LOL), sometimes you just need to forget it and move on. Paraphrasing, of course. He would totally be on my side about the restaurant, I’m certain. So no, I won’t be joining the forum, and I’m actively trying to limit my time reading the other posts, since all it can do is make me weary.

ooh, shiny

I was going to write an entry, a large rambling thing about letting go and self-created suffering (I’m pretty good at it) and finding meaning in having compassion for other and lots more. Real meaning of life crap from my perspective.

But then work was a bear today and I ran an errand instead of eating lunch and then somebody gave D/FW a Tornadothon and I have been checking on friends and family and watching video of flying trucks this afternoon and well, fuck it, I’m not going to get the entry done today.

Maybe later. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe not. I can’t say at this point.

Be well.

Foo happens

This is great, someone posted this on FB and now I have a headphone-zone soundtrack for the next couple hours here in my lovely cubicle.

In other news, the rain has let up for a few days, sunny and 80 degrees again. That may even be a metaphor for my mood.