Hey, you know what? After posting my big entry about letting go of the need to control everything, and not dwelling on things that I really can’t control even if I wanted to, and stepping lightly?

Y’all, this shit’s hard.

I know I’m vague a lot, because I try and describe the feelings and the bigger picture, which to me is more important than the details. One problem I repeatedly experience is that I get bogged down in the minute details, and dwell on ‘what if’ or ‘OMG this is horrible’ and forget to step back and realize that overall, big picture, things aren’t so bad and I’m stronger than I give myself credit for and so is everyone I’m involved with.

In other words, when things go to hell, I lose my faith.

I’m lucky to have a lot of support and encouragement, otherwise I would have given up (for reals) a long time ago. I need to learn, really, to go with the chaos, celebrate the victories, feel the love, and let the setbacks go.